a little more about me

i love to write so i hope that this will help me feel better about some things... for starters i have been married for 13 years now and have two wonderful little boys, one just turned seven and the other turnes 5 in december... we are having a party this weekend and i am not ready, i have been a little on the down side lately and trying to stay busy.... which i do now that i got a job at kmart.. ben my husband just started over the road driving which is ok but kinda sucks, you would think after about 1year of him doing this i would get use to it but i just cant and the money has been so so ... its crazy .... well today i got alot done now its time to rest fix dinner and then watch my show ... i know i will write later just wanted to sit down still trying to figure the blogging out ... i am a little confused but i will get the hang of it any advive i will take lol ....

my family

well i wanted to start off by saying that life has really turned out so much different than i ever expected, i always thought that i would have a family but i figured it would be like a movie i guess. you know have the home kids cars and just enjoying. but i think i looked at everything so wrong, i have done many things i am not proud of and trying to move on with our life but its been hard... But i think i realize now that i dont want the movie life i want my life the one with two healthy happy little boys and a great husband... we may not have everything but we have each other and i am very thankful for that ... i am thankful for both my parents they have been there for me when i really needed it... my grandmother who has also been there for me... my sister who has also helped me and true friends that care....well i will get on this tomm and write some more...